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Monday, August 31, 2009

珍惜

真爱 需要2个人来维持
爱你的人 不一定会珍惜你
你爱的人 未必能对你付出
要找 就找个会珍惜爱护你的人
不要再浪费青春
在一个不值得你付出的人的身上了

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Shut your F up!

Seriously, i don't give a shit about you.
But i really had enough!

I pretend that I know nothing when u back stabbed me or talk bad about me behind my back.
I don't want to start the war.

Now you irritated me.
Why do you interrupt when that things are nothing to do with you?
You are not involved, know nothing
and u just listen blindly from people
and started to spout those stupid nonsense?
without even analyze it
with your brain?

Come on, Wake up!
Do u want me to tell u everything is fair in this world?
I'm not guilty.
I'm not doing anything wrong.
I didn't force people to help me this and that.

I got my own style.
I'm lazy.
I'm easy going.
I'm not getting stressed that easily.
So WHAT?
Am I committing a crime?
I'm not HURTING anyone!

Then why are u comparing me with others?
Because I'm lucky to have a smooth life?
Because I'm blessed by God to meet good people in my life?
Hard work doesn't pay off every time.
You should learn to adapt the rules of the society and reality.
Don't blame me on the unfortunate event that fall on some other people.
Who should I blame when i met a "friend" like you?
Destroy my reputation and made everybody hate me, is this your purpose?

I don't care, seriously.
Like I never betrayed by "friend" before.
Long time ago, some other fellow did that on me.
Make my life that miserable and terrible.
I was live in hell.
I DRINK and I even wanted to smoke.
Criticize me, leave me, ignore me, and the cold look from her eyes, I will never forget.
I asked for forgiveness, when I didn't even get a reason of apologizing?
I CRY, I BEG, I BOW
I'VE DONE EVERYTHING for the sake of FRIENDSHIP!
and she just leave without bothering to say a goodbye.

and what friendship is,
just a shit.
I know who treat me well, and I know who should disappear from my life.

If you are disagree with me, that's the end.
If you think I'm that terrible person, You could just leave.
No point of staying.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Hurt?

I've been wondering...
Did i hurt someone unconsciously while i always feel hurt by some other else.
I hurt a lot of people that loved me ... I assumed.
I'm really sorry about that.
I've always thought that I'm the one who's being hurt, by the one i loved.
The thinking that i might hurt someone i loved, it never came across my mind.
I'm sorry that I'm such a terrible person.
Gomen-ne!
For those I've hurt.
include myself. :P

Let's be friend! whoever you are.
Since we got the fate to know each other, don't waste it!
Let's be friend instead of stranger or enemy LOL
hehe

I'm sorry if i did something that hurt you.
When I was building a shield to protect myself.


Ah... I need hair cut on my fringe again...
It will be long enough to cover my eyes during the time of the competition!
Who wanna offer free haircut to me?
hehe.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

A letter for myself

To: Jiayi

Your heart is thumping wildly.
It suffocates you.
It makes you sick.

But it’s gonna be alright
Nothing bad will happen.
You will be fine.

Stop worrying about something that’s unrelated with the contest.
It’s never your business anymore.
Stop numbing yourself with food or dieting.
Your stomach and body got nothing wrong.

You want to start a new life.
You want to become a better one.
Then take care of yourself.

Focus.

Focus.

You can do it.

You‘re strong afterall.
(someone told u that har? This sounds ironic to me.)

From Jiayi

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Loveless



1)“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

2)“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.”

3)“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do...I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm in love with you.”

4)“You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me, and, even then, you'll be in my heart.

5)“Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.

6)“The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned.”

7)“One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.”

8)“The one who loves you will make you weep.”

9)“Being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in you heart that only love can fill.”

10)“Remember me and smile, for it's better to forget than remember me and cry.”

11)“I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.”

12)“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”


What's written above is silly and stupid. All nonsense...

But why is my heart weeping, when there's a smile on my face?
It's all fake.
It's time to overcome it you silly.
But nobody tell me how to do it.
My world, its raining.
Never stop.
Forever.

Skipped my meal again.
Too emo to fill up my stomach.

Good News? Bad News? The truth is, I'm in... LOL


I'm in? Into what?
Come lets guess... LOL

I'm able to get into the top 15 finalist of song composing competition that organized by
UNITED MORAL UPLIFTING SOCIETY MALAYSIA ( YOUTH SECTION )


for more information pls take a look at here-> 全国青少年潮极爱国华语歌曲创作比赛

But there're a request from the unit in charge, they request me to modify the lyrics.

He: The judge said that your song is nice, the melody is nice.
But the lyrics... errr, is a bit negative?
It's not suitable for our theme...
As we wanted people to get encouragement and motivation from the song...

Me: Ok... I think I can do it...
since it is for the competition's sake.
But the melody is full of sorrow, do u think it can transform into a positive song?

He: Ehm , I don't think the melody is sad.
I hope that the lyrics can bring out hope to the listener.

Me: Ok T.T

It's impossible for me to say no right?
I've to follow the Competition's theme instead of
insisting on my own style,
or the original meaning of the song.
And this is the 1st time Emo Jiayi write Positive song?
Eh... I think no...
I think "Non-Stop Tears" is quite a positive song rite?
for those who heard it before...

Ah ... never mind that...
This is a big challenge for me.
I've been cracking my head to think of a set of POSITIVE lyrics since yesterday night ...
Mia... It's so damn hard.
Until now I still haven't get myself a satisfied outcome... Haih...

And what's the bad news?
It supposed to be happy right?
grrr... Not at all... I haven't tell you the song title that got into final right?
..... It's just 3 days ......
By the way, is the chinese version.
More emo than the English cacat version
(Is cacat seriously, ppl think im singing japanese song! WTH... sob...)
You can listen the cacat version at my playlist there...
and the original mandarin version.
pls refer to my song list :)

And now here go another POSITIVE version.
WTH this song got so many version lar!
I Do Love this song.
I Do Wish it to be selected in the competition.
BUT I Don't Wish To Perform It on the STAGE!
grrrr...
I'm in dilemma.
Since the moment they tell me the song is selected.
I become emo, instead of Excited.
Damn.
I really don't wish to remember a single thing.
Why must God treat me in that way?
Wanna force me to face everything?
Damn...
Fine, I will accept the Challenge.
Let's see how much can I take.
I just afraid I might get heart attach in the middle of preparing for the competition.

Ha! Just kidding.

Here is the original lyrics of the song


It’s just 3 days

2009

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

V1

爱情 我早已看得彻底

独自一个人 也能活得开心

是你 让我放下戒心

放开自己 对你爱的彻底

V2

贴心的小惊喜 动了心

别轻易放弃 继续努力

你付出的有几分真心

Chorus:

It’s just 3 days and now u're gone

再多的泪水 无法挽回

你的心意已决

没有丝毫眷恋

头也不回装作看不见我的泪

V3

你的心 到底向往哪里?

为什么轻易 说放弃

结束的每一句 伤痛了我的心

为什么你把爱情 看得那么轻

V4

你每句我爱你 变得儿戏

开始是你 结束也是你

我有没有在你心里?

Chorus:

It’s just 3 days and now u're gone

再多的痛也由我自己背

你的决定不变

只好默默成全

Baby I Miss You

Bridge

你把我捧起 又把我推入谷底

眼睁睁看你背影消失眼前

那沉睡的脸还留在我脑海里

你那深邃眼睛 我到底该如何将你忘记

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


Emo? for me is quite EMO de lor...

Want me to transform ...
Haih the outcome is not tat satisfying.
When i done with the PERFECT new lyrics...
I will show u guys here...
But seriously, the new lyrics look so FAKE!
U cant believe it actually written by me...

Damn it @.@


One question for myself:
IF you can get a bright future and lots of fortune
by producing those song that brought u sorrow,
will u choose to get money and future by experience those bad relationship,
or
had a lovely relationship without producing any songs
(Emo Jiayi only can produce emo song when she is emo)

that means,
Bread and Love,
Which one will you choose?

Love.

Definitely.
For the sake of being typical Pisces.
:)


Woman in Black= Emo
LOL, since when i ve become a woman... I'm old :(

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

More Videossss

that was Long time ago ... LOL ~~~
Electone series...

JPOP series







Competition series

Monday, August 17, 2009

My 1st time interview Ever!

Thanks to Anthony the Anime Blogger...

Check it out ... My virgin Interview...
with Ant! *SHY*

at http://anime3r.blogspot.com/2009/08/hiroko-san-des.html ^^

Monday, August 10, 2009

VOTE me ! :P


http://apps.facebook.com/dellcollegeidol/index.php?collegeId=mmu#

I'm MMU 08... hohoho...
the photo taken quite nice one :P

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Outing with gals ...

yea Sweet moment again! Thanks to them for willing to spend time with me =D
*beware* camwhore appeared! XD


Best fren 4eva...
I know i said something gross, but pls love me girls X_X


I love this dress until I never bear to take off!
*The promoter said no photography allowed, who cared! XD*
Who sponsor me, it is RM599! I think im gonna wear this on my wedding @.@!!!
It will be 100 years later XP


This cute dress is cheaper, around RM200 or 300...
Seriously, the dress is tight @.@



1st time in TOPSHOP! I heard there had really nice clothes. So we visit the shop and the price showing is .... OMG!!!
Well, TOPSHOP do had nice dress. This pinky little shirt is doing 50% off...
After discount still cost RM100++ @.@
I need to work harder @.@


Sufung, your head!!!



The black n white skirt is funky! Yoyo!
Belt sponsored by Sufung. Well actually i stole it from her =X


1st try on flower dress as well! Not bad eh...
I think Sherlyn had tried on this before...
hehe sure she looks better in the dress... ^^



Alice said this pic looks complicated... cuz our dresses are complicated XD

Stay tuned ! 2 weeks later im sure got more picture for updated! Ha!

As i grow up...

I realised that

I tend to cry more
Is it because that I've become more sensitive
Or I m weaker?

I started to lose trust
I' m losing faith
My confidence is collapsing

I started to get sick
Physically
and Mentally...

When your dream is vanished
When you see the reality
When you're being betrayed
When you're being lied to
When you started to give up on believing

Is that the taste of being a grown up?
I wish I'm still a child



Monday, August 3, 2009

You are my ALL

~~~I left a note~~~

At the corner that we used to be

When will you find out the true feeling

Deep down in my heart

~~~That you are my ALL
~~~