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Saturday, February 28, 2009

White Love - Speed

White Love

Speed


☆ 果てしない あの雲の彼方へ
私をつれていって
その手を 離さないでね

真冬の星座から 舞いおちた白い恋
胸の奥に 降りつもる
心に染みて 涙になる
仲間とは違う サインで呼び合うたび
強くなれる
離れていても いつだってひとつだよね

もっとちゃんと いつも つかまえていて
電話がない夜は 強がってても
ホントはね I miss you ・・・

果てしない 星の光のように
胸いっぱいの愛で
今あなたを 包みたい
天使がくれた 出逢いは
あの空を 突きぬけて
永遠に輝き続ける

白いため息で 曇った窓ににじむ
イルミネイション うれしいほど
明日が不安で 泣けるものね
新しい手帳にも あなたのイニシャルが沢山
ありますように・・・
次の約束が あるから生きていけるよ
雪が溶けて やがて春がくる頃
あなたにとって 木洩れ日のような
やすらぎに なってたい

果てしない 星の生命のように
くじけそうになっても
ずっと愛し続けるよ
儚い 雪みたいに
この今の しあわせが
いつか 消えてしまわぬように

「愛してる・・・ 抱いていて・・・」

☆ くり返し

天使がくれた出逢いは
奇跡なんかじゃないよ
神様 見つめてて
生まれたての愛を
永遠に大切にするから

―― あなたの為に生きていきたい ――

English

Take me to the other side of the endless clouds
Don’t let go of my hand

This white love that’s fallen from a midwinter constellation
Builds up in my chest, penetrates my heart and turns to tears
Every time we call each other by different names to our friends
We can get stronger
Even if we’re apart, we’re always one

Hold me more, properly, always
On nights when you don’t call I pretend to be strong
But the truth is I miss you

Like the light of the stars that go on forever
I want to cover you with the love that fills my heart
Our encounter, a gift from the angels
Will fly through the air and keep sparkling forever

The illumination
Blurs in the window fogged up by my white sighs
The happier I am, the more tomorrow makes me tearful with anxiety
Even my new notebook
Is full of your initials
It’s because there’s the promise of next time that I can go on living

When the snow melts and spring eventually comes
I want to feel as much at ease with you
As the sun that leaks through the trees

Like the lives of the stars that go on forever
I’ll keep loving you forever even when I feel like giving up
I hope the happiness we have now
Won’t melt someday like the fleeting snow

”I love you…hold me…”

Take me to the other side of the endless clouds
Don’t let go of my hand

Our encounter, a gift from the angels
Isn’t a miracle
The gods are watching over our newly born love
I’ll always treasure you
I want to live for you

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

i really tried ... believe me

I'm trying so hard to do it... i really tried...

But i still lost my faith ... lost my faith in music, lost faith in myself, and someone else...

Mummy give me alot of advices, she told me so much about what should i do ...
Well, i just a coward, as usual...

I believe in myself of course... I can do it... The most confident things that i ve ever done is Music.. Ya, music ... And i suppose to enjoy the process right? Well i hope soo ... I hope that i can enjoy every moment when doing music ... But, it seems like i only can enjoyed it when i was doing alone.

I am so shy and introvert... But i changed, i changed to make more friends, to make people like me. I try to mix up with peoples... But Peoples don't really bother about my existence, they ignore me, they dislike me, den i retreat, go back to my own corner.

i felt uneasy when mixing with a lot of peoples... i felt that i ve left out...

I won pretend that i m so passionate and so active when facing people. I just want to be myself...
but seems like nobody love my true self... i can be crazy sometimes, when meeting the right person...

i need some attention, thats all. and when there are not, i will remain silent.

I am lost... again...

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

我不是你想像的那麼勇敢

我以为我很勇敢
我以为这次我会很勇敢地向前冲
不顾一切的
可是
我一点都不勇敢
我很小心翼翼的分析着
所有的不可能
所有的不适合
我会放弃机会?
还是勇敢地去追?

Jiayi List- No 20

梁文音--我不是你想像的那麼勇敢

於2008年12月12日由環球唱片發行「愛的詩篇」專輯,收錄在第六首

《我不是你想像的那麼勇敢》
有時候太堅強 笑容卻填不滿眼眶
越是想要隱藏 歌聲就唱的更響亮
直到入到心底最深處 OH~
你不要追問我 還缺了些什麼
每個人都有夢 幸福總站在最遠方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手擁抱
誰的心是我最後一站
我強問我自己 現在還沒有個答案
我不是你想像那麼勇敢
多想讓你保護能流淚一場
讓我放下武裝 像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上
每個人都有夢 幸福總站在最遠方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手擁抱
誰的心是我最後一站
我強問我自己 現在還沒有個答案
我不是你想像那麼勇敢
多想讓你保護能流淚一場
讓我放下武裝 像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上
我不是你想像總是扮演堅強
多想讓你知道我也要個伴
放下討厭武裝 像個孩子一樣
單純的把愛情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麼勇敢

to: guys and gals

Thanks for the birthday "Surprised"! haha... next time when u guys plan to give ppl surprise don make so much noise outside lar... :D

i had been peeking at u guys 15 min before the door bell rang ... LOL

haha ... THanks anyway... Its glad to see you guys all together again ^^

Sim Ying ar... next time i bring u eat strawberry lar k? don simply eat strawberry when unknown ppl around, i scared u wil kena kidnapped... XD

Monday, February 23, 2009

stomachache

For dunno what reason, my stomach had not feeling so well this few days...

I got upset stomach for everyday. No appetite when eating food... Susahnya....

i even got cramp in my stomach yesterday night ... shit... i wonder what happened?

haih ...

i am 20!!!

OMG ... i am old ... :( never mind, it means i am mature right, Right, RIGHT? lol

well, this year i din got birthday emo, its great thing for me ...! kakaka... don blame me for being emo-ing during my big day, i am sensitive... kekeke...

I got my greatest gift from God during my 20th birthday! u guess what? is the number of the scale! i ve lost 3-4kg more since chinese new year!!!! omg , am i being unhealthy or what? i didnt cut on my meal, i m too lazy to exercise.... so i lost my fat without reason?! yea... it is!

i rush into my room and take out all my old clothes. And u see what, i can fit into my old PANTS!!! wow.... such a great news for me. i ve been abandon for such a long time, sorry pals! XD

i even try on my sis(which is sooooooo skinny) and my mum(smaller size than me)'s pant, which i can fit in!!! Ahahaha ... thats the reason i being so happy for the whole day of my birthday...
and of course i will wear the shorts(quite short for me) which i Never tried before during the outing of my birthday! hahaha...who knows when will my fat get back and give me a surprise... LOL

Well my sisters are shocked... and they could never call me Fatty Da Jie(fat big sis) again. haha... My mum even worry that something happened to my health ... ya, i think really got problem lo... XD

But my friends never notice at all ... >.< nah, its ok.. at least i get back my confident... NAhahah!

So the next, i wan to buy shorts, shorts, Shorts, and SHORTS! of course long jeans as welll! Sorry to my louise, I just bring it home for nt even 2 months, i ve to abandon it edi, its too loose for me... Maybe i will get u back in not long time again? CHoi!! touch wood... i donwan bcome fat again :(


hmm... ok enough of the weight scale issues... I get back to hometown specially to celebrate v my dearest family. We hardly can go on an outing and having a nice dinner together since everybody are so busy for their own stuff... I got papa, mama, 2 sisters and grandpa celebrating my birthday with me! it is simple but sweet. ^^

The place we were having dinner is located at Danga Bay, for ur info, its at Johor Bahru ^^

I started to receive calls and sms when 12am arrived. i received 3 birthday song, or should i said 2.5? someone is forced by me to sing a birthday song to me... haha

hmm...i heard sms ringtone rang during my sleep ... even at 6am ~.~ LOL

I spend my next days with my best friend and fellow junior of Secondary school ... Its fun. It had been so long since the last gathering.

I think thats all ... i will upload the pic later ... ^^

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Count down ...

2 days to go for my big day ....



Muahaha ...





pheromone 费洛蒙


有人说男性费洛蒙酮有点像人的体味,但女性费洛蒙醇则几乎无味。而我们声称所费洛蒙是无味的,基本上是基于正常人的鼻子无法侦测到它的味道。没有味道,那 又是什么器官可以接受费洛蒙讯号,而使得人的心情愉快,并深俱性吸引力呢?近年来科学家不但分离出人类的费洛蒙,也透过科学实验证实了人类行为也会受到费 洛蒙分子的影响就是在鼻中隔三分之一处犁形突起的鼻犁器( VNO Vomeronasol Organs 如图)。费洛蒙的运作不需要任何辅助的气味,它就像你心底的声音,但它更像是你五官之外的第六感。
  科学家早就观察到费洛蒙如何影响人类的潜意识,又如何影响动物族群之间的发展、繁衍、团结、养 育他们的下一代。新近科学家也发现人体费洛蒙可以加速人类青春期的发育、控制女人的生理与排卵周期,甚至可以影响性行为与性伴侣的选择取向。费洛蒙帮助我 们分辨爱人、亲人、与陌生人。费洛蒙使母亲与婴儿紧密连结。费洛蒙也影响我们多久做一次爱,与什么人做爱。也影响我们脑部的发展,例如我们希望记住什么, 希望学习什么……
  对男人来说,费洛蒙是由脸部,人中周围,腋下,阴毛与尿液排出的。至于女人的费洛蒙则是由脸 部、腋下、乳头、阴部排出。因为费洛蒙随着汗腺的汗与皮脂排出体外,当汗水被细菌分解时便产了恶臭。而我们在急于洗掉这个令现代人不愉快的味道时,也洗掉 了我们神秘的沟通能力「费洛蒙」。
  费洛蒙是人体分泌的一种信息素,异性之间的引力全有赖于它的气息。它对社交活动尤其是男女两性 之间的交流具有润滑催化作用。使异性不由自主的被吸引,让你在社交活动中尤其在异性面前成为最具魅力的人。它亦能改善你的性爱生活,费洛蒙为欧美男女最新 时尚用品,为 目前潮流最热销商品之一。近些年开始逐渐在性用品商店成为畅销品,就连香港导演徐克的电影《女人不坏》都在向它“致敬”。


是费洛蒙吧,让我一次又一次爱上错的人。
这可怕的东西,在毫无预警下陷害了我。
我正努力用我的理性抵抗着他。
我一定要赢!
啊~~~
头脑混乱+心脏麻痹。。。
LOL...



Saturday, February 14, 2009

Song list

#过敏-covered by Jiayi(original by Rainy Yang)
#情伤covered by Jiayi(Original Composer:GuoXiong Singer:HuiLin)
#下雨天covered by Jiayi(Original by Lara/南拳妈妈)
# 恋のサヴァイヴァル-Coco d’Or (hiro) [Gloria Gaynor - I Will Survive]
#It's just 3 days - Jiayi(NEW!)
#海里的记忆[memories in sea] - Jiayi
#.无结[endless story] - Jiayi
#.ハレハレユカイ(harehareyukai) - Jiayi(Suzumiya Haruhi's Theme Song)
#.あしたの空[ashita no sora/Sky of tomorrow]
#.爱上鲨鱼的美人鱼(female version)[mermaid who in love with a shark]- 朴熙京 (from korean drama )
#.爱上鲨鱼的美人鱼[mermaid who in love with a shark]-赵冠宇
(from korean drama )
#.White Love - COver by Mirai
#. White Love|STEADY|Body&Soul 2008- Speed
#.Only you - From korean Drama
#.Snow kiss - Speed
#.Find - SS501
#. byul [Star]- youme (Korean drama <200>)
#.我还是不懂 [I still don't understand]- A-Lin
#.相信[believe] - 朱浩仁 (originated from Bo go Ship Ta[missing you] - Kim Bum Soo)
#.Something new - Speed
#.黄昏晓[the sunset] - 王心凌 Cindy (From Taiwan Drama )
#.笨得可以[I'm just too stupid] - 郭采洁 (From Taiwan Drama )
#.爱炼 - 神木与瞳
#. 疯子[Mad]-许哲佩 Peggy

Friday, February 13, 2009

Gacc 07 Hare Hare Yukai

Cool.... nostalgia....

the video from Gacc 2007...

miss those moments....

my face was so gloomy that time... maybe i was nervous and forgot to SMILE?
nah ... i not good at smilling btw...
if u give me another chance, i sure can perform better and with greater face emotion...
nah... no more 2nd chance ... :(

don look at my face then, u can look for Simying, Phoebe and Jay cute face inside... Cheerzzz...


Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Cute doggy pic!!

My Baobei



Sushi in Shower


Specky blink blink


Cool...

Other's dog


Bibi, My cousin's dog... So kecil ...


Bibi also, but a female. Uncle's dog, this one besar sikit ...



Another uncle's dogs..



SOOooooooo Cute!!!!

Flower 4/ Hana Yori Dango Korean Version/花样男子/流星花园




最近疯狂沉迷的韩剧。花样男子/流星花园韩版!!!




It is the best casting for this drama among other version of hana yori dango.
Even though the casting for this drama are all new and unknown korean artist, but they are pretty boy, INDEED!!

wohoho... the female character who take the Makino's role(杉菜) is so cute, unlike the taiwan and japanese version. I like her so muchhhhhh....

Of course, the artists who take the Domyouji Tsukasa(道明寺司) and Hanazawai Rui(花泽类)is kind of a beauty... For sure i will fall in love with Rui at the 1st sight. He is prettier than a girl....
But if we follows along the story, for sure Domyouji will be my choice. Kakaka. But if this kind of guy appears in the real life, it will be a big No No to me. I don't like violent and unreasonable guy ... LOL

Surprisingly, Sojiroh(西门) in this drama is so extraordinary that attract my eyesight. Nah, he is just so cute! kakaka.... ehm. about the Akira(美作), he looks not bad. But not my cup of tea. WOhoho.

Check this out for the synopsis and downloads...
http://www.fs2you.org.cn/show.php?tid=4647

It is not 100% same with the original story.

Why can't i save them?

During the days i back to hometown. 2 of my little sis's friend's puppy passed away successively...

Her friend called YH. Her house has rear many mongrel dogs. 5 or 6... and recently the female dog born a batch of puppies. Only 2 survive. One with short fur but looks not so cute, i dunno its name. Another with long fur and adorable looks called Alex. Obviously they bias to Alex more. i just turn a blind eyes to this matter.

Some problem occur on the 1st puppy. It bit by some other adult dogs in their house. YH claimed that it is going to die. OMG, she didn't seem to care about anything that happen to that poor puppy.
We never found any serious injuries on its body. But it don't want to eat. And i dunno why its tummy is so big and round. Maybe there are worms inside. Other parts of its body are so skinny that we can see its bone!
There re lots of fleas inside its ear and other parts of its body. i got goosebump when i saw that. But my little sis, a professional "fleas catcher" offered to do the job. I wonder why she is so enjoyable when doing this job which can scare me off.

I go back home and take some glucose and mix in the water. We force him to drink. Glucose can provide some energy to him so that he can fight the disease. The little fellow still can walk. One of its eye is swollen and cannot open. It might cause by the pus which stick it eyes lid. We use water to rub on it so the sticky stuff can go off.

We go for 2nd times on the following days and do the same job.

But after that we are so busy for the preparation for New year and parents don't like us being busybody for this stuff.

The little fellow passed away on the 1st day of chinese new year. Haih...


Alex had some problem no long time after another puppy passed away. YH claimed that it was stil active in the morning, but it vomit suddenly at noon. And it become strengthless and cannot move at all.

It is a serious problem for a little puppy. My little sis want to drag me over her house. But i rejected. I am not a vet, somemore even i saved her dog this time, i cant save it in the future. I can't accept tey way YH's family treat their dogs. They are house dog. But they are approve to run outside freely every moment and they don't even care when the dogs bring wounds to home because of fighting. They are nothing different with stray dog!

But at last, i still follow my sis to her house. I thought i can watch with folded arm this time. I saw YH is crying. But what, i feel funny. What is the tears for?? Cute dog deserved to be crying over. How about the 1st dog? We had warn her. She should take care of the puppy carefully.
I just unbear to leave a innocent lives lying at there. And YH said that her mum saved a dog by feeding it raw egg with sugar. Although i unapproved of this method, thats nothing else can i do. Alex mostly are getting food poisoning. It is so weak and both of its eyes cannot open. There are green pus coming out from its eyes. What i can do is clean his body, dry his body, wrap him with a clothes to make him warm. We force him eat the raw egg.(I regretted that i approve this method. It just fasten his death.) And we put him in a box. It sleep soundly after that.

Alex passed away in the following morning. Even vet also can't save him. It is already reach its final stage. I just afraid it is a case of Distemper or Parvovirus. The disease is highly contagious and cannot be cure. I am worry for the dogs in this neighbourhood.

Haih. Why i can't save them? I should study something useful to help those innocent lives instead of wasting my time here and study something useless for myself.

Papa dun let me open pet shop. Fine. Now he even stop me to become a nurse in vet clinic. T_______T because of my trachea problem... Cisss.... i can always wear a mask ...

Change during this Semester break

I did some change this semester, hehe.

1st, i removed my braces! Wohooo... Finally...
although the result is not really obvious, but still thanks for my parents who willing to spend so much on my TEETH.... yea, now i can smile wide and laugh and don't have to worry people saw my "railway's track"... LOL

2nd, i changed my spectacle! i choose a purple thick frame. I must admit it is very bold design for me. People must change right? haha. It looks not so bad. At least people will notice i have change my spectacle! lol...

3rd, i have dye my hair. But nobody realised. T________T cuz it is my 1st time, and it failed ... AHhhhhhh, mamaaaa......
I had repeat many times that i don wan brownnnnnn color hair ......

I bought a red coloring. Mum help me apply. that means its a DIY experience. it is also mum's first time. OMG.
That explain why my 1st hair dying experience will failed.

After an hour, i go in front of the mirror.
"Maaaaaaaamiiiiiii, why my hair still BLACKKKKKK!!!!"
"Ehm, the color might become more obvious if you rinse off the coloring i think... "

SO i rinse off....

"Maaaaaaaaa, still the same!!!!!!!"
"ehmm... i also dunno lehhh...."

OMG... my 1st time, my precious hair...

if you check out my hair properly under the sun, u might see some bright orange coat on my hair... ISHHHHHH..... my sis said my hair looks like just bleached... it is worse than before.... wahhhhhhh.... She is so vicious, match her style indeed. she used to rub salt into my wound, T__T I try to wash off the orange coat... but failed! nahhhhh.... cincai lar...... just leave it .......

Frequent Question

The most frequent question that i had been ask during New year is:
"Hey, you got boyfriend already?"
"Hey, you daughter got bring boyfriend back? my friend's daughter's bf looks so XXX, no standard at all. My friend don't like him at all. "

yeah yeah yeah, i know i am old, i know i has reached a awkward age... But my dad never rush me for this thing before. Because he said i only can have bf when i am 21.(Amazing dad harr?) Haha... I never listen to him. I do it on my own way.

Well well, its true those cousin that are around my age or even younger than me, had a partner. But doesn't me i need to have too. rite?

When Uncle Auntie ask me this question, my busybody sister will answer:"Nobody wants her... hohoho..." yaya, my 2 sisters are sooooo obedient that even help me answer this question...

Ehm.... that's nothing wrong to stay single right? I am not commit any crime. Haha. But Mum said something surprisingly:
"I just afraid you might be left on the shelf... Never mind, then you can always accompany me by my side. hoho."

Ish... good mum indeed...

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Never abandon your pets

  Accidentally I heard from my little niece that my Uncle abandoned his dog when it was sick. The dog chased his car when he throw it at somewhere outside their housing area.

I felt so upset when i heard all this but only can keep my mouth shut because i don't dare to reason with an elders. But my heart felt so uncomfortable.

I feel so heartache and cold when my uncle which i always think is a Mr. Perfect did such a thing to an innocent life. I told my dad about my thought. He encourage me to tell my uncle about my thought.

So, I did it. And in the end it is just a misunderstanding. The dog has been very misbehavior. It was sick and had a cramps on its leg lately. It don't want to move a single step but making noise everyday. Uncle has send him to the vet but it can't be cured.

Due to the nuisance and noise disturbance it brought to the neighbourhood, Uncle plan to move it to somewhere further so that he won't receive complain from the neighbour.

He put him at a place which is not so far from their house. He claim that it can recognize the route to go home from that place. He will provide his meal still. The dog chase their car for some times after they leaved him (He never move a step after he got the illness!)

Uncle feel guilty after some times and get back to the place. But the dog is missing. It is nowhere to be found. This is how the story ends.

He told me he was so regret after listening to what i said. Then i ask him to take care of his other dogs with more care and never abandon them to atone his guilt.


*Never abandon your pets when their death is around the corner. They will feel warm and safe when you are with them at the last moment of their life.

*Support them through thick and thin. They bring laughter to your life when they are healthy, now it's your turn to support them when they are old and sick.

*You got your own friends and family. But your pet only got you. Care them is your responsibility. Love them will make their life complete.

R.I.P Xiao Bai



Xiao Bai... my 1st and one and only white hamster, has passed away peacefully at 18 Jan 09.
It's so pity that she can't celebrate Chinese New year with us.

Little sis found Xiao Bai lying in her cage as usual, her usual sleeping posture, Little sis thought she is just sleeping soundly. But we never expect she will never wake up from her sleep.

Little sis found her leave peacefully in her favourite pink cage. We never expect she is the one who left us because she is used to be so cheerful and easy going. She never get irritated when we disturb her neither when stranger playing with her.

Little sis got upset whole day and crying while watching her photo.
I thought i can control my emotion, but when i see Little sis cried over Xiao Bai's body,the tears rolled down my cheeks.

She is the 1st hamster that i had in my life. She comes together with her partner, Xiao Hei, which also leave us. Maybe now they can meet in heaven.

She is our family's favourite. Papa and Mama liked her so much because of her white fur, fat body and adorable look. We will miss her always.

We buried her under the neighbourhood land. Occasionally we will went the place to look for her, bless that she will happy always, no matter where she is.

her last photo

Monday, February 2, 2009

Meeeee

Here Comes My Brand New Blog at Blogger!

It is sure that i will post everything about me, me, me and Still Meeee!!

And i got to make sure that i don't post any emo stuff at here.

I want to keep here clean and enjoyable for my reader! Wohooo! Enjoy ...